Friday, July 22, 2005
Oh well
I don't think I'll be going anywhere today. She called me back in the very early afternoon, and we agreed for her to call me back an hour later and then to see where we would take it from there. She agreed to the café I suggested... but hasn't called me back ever since.
And I cancelled our afternoon/evening of Magic the Gathering with The Ex a couple of hours ago, thinking I would be busy.
I am disappointed, but for some reason not too bummed out. After she called me I got so nervous at the thought of what I had put myself into, and what would I have to tell her, that I got physically ill, like there was a leaden medicine ball lodged in my stomach.
If she calls back now, I will just tell her that I got swamped with more work (which isn't even a lie), and ask her for her email address. Telling her while not having to look at her will be much easier, and then she won't be embarrassed, and actually has the choice not to ever contact me again and saves both of us the awkwardness of all of this.
*shrugs*
And I cancelled our afternoon/evening of Magic the Gathering with The Ex a couple of hours ago, thinking I would be busy.
I am disappointed, but for some reason not too bummed out. After she called me I got so nervous at the thought of what I had put myself into, and what would I have to tell her, that I got physically ill, like there was a leaden medicine ball lodged in my stomach.
If she calls back now, I will just tell her that I got swamped with more work (which isn't even a lie), and ask her for her email address. Telling her while not having to look at her will be much easier, and then she won't be embarrassed, and actually has the choice not to ever contact me again and saves both of us the awkwardness of all of this.
*shrugs*
