Monday, May 23, 2005
On to bigger and better things...
Okay, enough of this Amy-crap. I take hints when I get them. Saturday I made my decidedly very last attempt to get in touch with her, by sending her a (somewhat humorous) text message inviting her for our show that night - again.
And?
Nothing. No call, no email, no text message back.
I get it now... but I really would have appreciated if she would have just told me, you know? I am a big girl... I can take it. Especially considering that she's the one missing out here. Judge me after one hour of nervous meeting, while I was all ridiculously decked out for stage, tired, disoriented because I was homeless for a few days because my house was being poisoned, worried out of my mind with a sick cat at home - and most of all horribly scared of my very first date with a female? Ok... if you don't want to give me another chance, so be it.
I am not really offended... I have met people before that sounded really nice in email or on the phone, and when I met them I was so horrified I wanted to get out of that situation as soon as possible. It happens. It's a chemistry thing. It's nothing personal, and I don't feel personally rejected, simply because she doesn't know me personally at all. She saw one hour of me, highly overdressed, and highly nervous. That's all.
People can't be attracted to everybody out there, it's normal.
I am, however, a little bit disappointed. I was not overly attracted to her either... but I thought she was cute enough and above all nice... and I would always like to make new friends, no matter what. I liked when she was calling me out of nowhere, and I liked emailing her and reading her responses. I enjoyed this, and I thought I was on the right track.
It's time to turn my attention to other things... only what those other things are I am not quite sure yet. I am a bit bummed out that we ended up spending Thursday night at home, as I mentioned in my previous entry, for I was ready to tackle the gay female populace of that particular joint with all my clumsy charms full of desperate determination. Now I feel a little bit lost. I am getting tired of scanning through online personals and sending emails that make me sound witty and exciting, only to run out of stuff to talk about after the second or so email. Amy was different in that regard. We sent those really long emails back and forth, and I thought we were on the same wavelength...
Boy, I sure am glad to be engaged and soon married... I almost forgot how tedious and annoying this whole "dating" thing can be... especially when I have no experience at all with this sort of interaction.
And?
Nothing. No call, no email, no text message back.
I get it now... but I really would have appreciated if she would have just told me, you know? I am a big girl... I can take it. Especially considering that she's the one missing out here. Judge me after one hour of nervous meeting, while I was all ridiculously decked out for stage, tired, disoriented because I was homeless for a few days because my house was being poisoned, worried out of my mind with a sick cat at home - and most of all horribly scared of my very first date with a female? Ok... if you don't want to give me another chance, so be it.
I am not really offended... I have met people before that sounded really nice in email or on the phone, and when I met them I was so horrified I wanted to get out of that situation as soon as possible. It happens. It's a chemistry thing. It's nothing personal, and I don't feel personally rejected, simply because she doesn't know me personally at all. She saw one hour of me, highly overdressed, and highly nervous. That's all.
People can't be attracted to everybody out there, it's normal.
I am, however, a little bit disappointed. I was not overly attracted to her either... but I thought she was cute enough and above all nice... and I would always like to make new friends, no matter what. I liked when she was calling me out of nowhere, and I liked emailing her and reading her responses. I enjoyed this, and I thought I was on the right track.
It's time to turn my attention to other things... only what those other things are I am not quite sure yet. I am a bit bummed out that we ended up spending Thursday night at home, as I mentioned in my previous entry, for I was ready to tackle the gay female populace of that particular joint with all my clumsy charms full of desperate determination. Now I feel a little bit lost. I am getting tired of scanning through online personals and sending emails that make me sound witty and exciting, only to run out of stuff to talk about after the second or so email. Amy was different in that regard. We sent those really long emails back and forth, and I thought we were on the same wavelength...
Boy, I sure am glad to be engaged and soon married... I almost forgot how tedious and annoying this whole "dating" thing can be... especially when I have no experience at all with this sort of interaction.
