Monday, January 24, 2005
About that phone call...
...it was basically just The Fiancé staying in touch with people (including her), and preparing them for our upcoming CD release party. And like I said before, she told him that she'd want to come, once we have a date set, and all.
Seems like my fantasies or me staring at her in the crowd, unable to play one straight tune will come true afterall... can it be? Can it really be?
One thing I was thinking, that whenever I get to see her again, I will have to make some sort of move. Whatever this will be. But I am determined NOT to spend another span of months and months just dreaming of her, and how big of a crush I have on her, knowing that she doesn't have the slightest idea. Is she into girls? I have not one damn clue. Am I going to tell her that Isomething that I will have to do, or say, in an attempt to keep her in my life, and not let her slip away again. I don't know what this will be yet, I will have to play it by ear once it happens. And keep a very close eye on her and her reactions to me, so that I don't miss out on important details anymore like "her staring at me". And take my being exposed on stage as an opportunity. There is a lot of eye contact that can be made and held from upstage, and us being the center of all attention by default can work in my advantage when it comes to getting hers.
Now I need to really work on my stage presence... which up until now is practically nil, despite my physical presence. I need to impress her enough to cause her to want to talk with me again the way she did the very first time we met. And I am going to make a point out of paying attention to her, no matter how many other people will be there, giving her the hint, and...
...*slaps self* Ok, wake up. Enough fantasizing. Take it for what it'll be, and that's it. Geez, woman. am into girls? Probably not. But there is
Seems like my fantasies or me staring at her in the crowd, unable to play one straight tune will come true afterall... can it be? Can it really be?
One thing I was thinking, that whenever I get to see her again, I will have to make some sort of move. Whatever this will be. But I am determined NOT to spend another span of months and months just dreaming of her, and how big of a crush I have on her, knowing that she doesn't have the slightest idea. Is she into girls? I have not one damn clue. Am I going to tell her that Isomething that I will have to do, or say, in an attempt to keep her in my life, and not let her slip away again. I don't know what this will be yet, I will have to play it by ear once it happens. And keep a very close eye on her and her reactions to me, so that I don't miss out on important details anymore like "her staring at me". And take my being exposed on stage as an opportunity. There is a lot of eye contact that can be made and held from upstage, and us being the center of all attention by default can work in my advantage when it comes to getting hers.
Now I need to really work on my stage presence... which up until now is practically nil, despite my physical presence. I need to impress her enough to cause her to want to talk with me again the way she did the very first time we met. And I am going to make a point out of paying attention to her, no matter how many other people will be there, giving her the hint, and...
...*slaps self* Ok, wake up. Enough fantasizing. Take it for what it'll be, and that's it. Geez, woman. am into girls? Probably not. But there is
