Tuesday, December 07, 2004
No metal yet...
So, lack of money kept me from executing my yummy plans on the weekend, and we stayed home instead, doing such exciting things as homework.
To make up for it, I installed a brand-new desktop wallpaper, featuring Milla Jovovich in a breathtakingly and painfully erotic pose, which I now can't stop staring at, and which - of course - reminds me of Jo. Gawd... I want that woman. *sighs*
And I don't think I'll ever be able to watch another Milla movie ever again without thinking of and aching for Jo... it's really not that she resembles her closely at all, it's just something in my mind that connects them both together... mostly their eyes, I believe.
Oh yeah... and as I forgot to mention: my ex (and now best friend), who hosts this domain on his own server, has stumbled across this blog while going through and deleting some comment spam over on my "real" blog.
So, all like he wouldn't know it himself already from reading the whole thing from beginning to end, he asks me on ICQ something like: "Hey, so when did you start this new blog of yours?"
Hey! Caught me there. Though it's not really that I was hiding it from him, knowing well that he has full access to all my files on his server, more like keeping facts to myself, cause I didn't want to really deal with discussing these matters with him, when he didn't react all so positively to me telling him while we were dating in the first place.
Interestingly enough though, a good conversation came out of it, including him saying that he'd always kinda knew about The Fiancé sorta swinging both ways (- with a gay brother, I assume that his "gaydar" is rather highly developed), and him giving me advice on how to deal with possible threesomes and the likes, and the emotional turmoil that might be the outcome of it. He of all people, in his function as my ex boyfriend! I sure felt a bit awkward, but take it from someone who knows from experience, I always say.
And that was the end of it, no further weirdness or me having the feeling I have to defend myself for something. One more person to be checkmarked on my list.
Furthermore, today I had this weird (and thankfully supressed) urge to pass this link on to my sister, and therefore starting my coming out with my family members. I caught myself before the act, however, and disregarded it as a momentary lapse into insanity. Whereas I am very sure of myself and who I am, I am still a long way from feeling good and confident enough about it to be able to face my family with it. If I will ever be, that is.
So here, for some eye candy, have a look at what I'm having a look at:
To make up for it, I installed a brand-new desktop wallpaper, featuring Milla Jovovich in a breathtakingly and painfully erotic pose, which I now can't stop staring at, and which - of course - reminds me of Jo. Gawd... I want that woman. *sighs*
And I don't think I'll ever be able to watch another Milla movie ever again without thinking of and aching for Jo... it's really not that she resembles her closely at all, it's just something in my mind that connects them both together... mostly their eyes, I believe.
Oh yeah... and as I forgot to mention: my ex (and now best friend), who hosts this domain on his own server, has stumbled across this blog while going through and deleting some comment spam over on my "real" blog.
So, all like he wouldn't know it himself already from reading the whole thing from beginning to end, he asks me on ICQ something like: "Hey, so when did you start this new blog of yours?"
Hey! Caught me there. Though it's not really that I was hiding it from him, knowing well that he has full access to all my files on his server, more like keeping facts to myself, cause I didn't want to really deal with discussing these matters with him, when he didn't react all so positively to me telling him while we were dating in the first place.
Interestingly enough though, a good conversation came out of it, including him saying that he'd always kinda knew about The Fiancé sorta swinging both ways (- with a gay brother, I assume that his "gaydar" is rather highly developed), and him giving me advice on how to deal with possible threesomes and the likes, and the emotional turmoil that might be the outcome of it. He of all people, in his function as my ex boyfriend! I sure felt a bit awkward, but take it from someone who knows from experience, I always say.
And that was the end of it, no further weirdness or me having the feeling I have to defend myself for something. One more person to be checkmarked on my list.
Furthermore, today I had this weird (and thankfully supressed) urge to pass this link on to my sister, and therefore starting my coming out with my family members. I caught myself before the act, however, and disregarded it as a momentary lapse into insanity. Whereas I am very sure of myself and who I am, I am still a long way from feeling good and confident enough about it to be able to face my family with it. If I will ever be, that is.
So here, for some eye candy, have a look at what I'm having a look at:
